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ekoh – trauma كلمات اغاني

[verse]
maybe i just feel this sh_t more than most
maybe i’ve been tryna find my way out of this hole
haven’t talked to mom, it’s been a year
for all i know she could be dead
and i’d be lyin’ if i said there ain’t relief in thinkin’ that
love has been a delicate dance, i never learned well
don’t know how to act havin’ money, i never earned well
feels like if i don’t f_ck it up then the world will
did all that i set out to do, why do i hurt still?
it seems the further i get the more i close
wall’s off to anybody who wants to know me
outsidе of this persona grata i try to show
i could post a reel but it’s probably the furthest from rеal, yo
it isn’t all about the number’s and the glitz
and we always say what life ain’t but don’t know what it is
i don’t know what i’m chasin’ or tryin’ to prove
put another bandage on a bullet hole to fix the wound
just consumed with these thoughts tryna fight ’em off
i quit the drugs but the biggest addiction is that inner dialogue
the vulnerability, the path to real connection
but i’m stressed and i don’t want to open up to anybody
especially those i have to trust
i’ve been burnt already once, twice, f_ck it, a hundred
but always thought that was a normal life
because it’s normal right?
for you to grow up thinkin’ you’re the only one you can depend on after all these nights alone
police on the phone
either brothers suicide attempts or your mom’s overdosed
four dad’s came and went
either disappeared or died from the bottle they were sinkin’ in
even then you still justify it like it’s okay
bein’ ignored and when you do, well you feel ashamed
’cause they got real problems
how the f_ck do you complain?
now if someone says you’re important, you just pull away
i know the trauma isn’t always how the big things affected
it’s silent little cuts in the soul that get neglected
piled up and collected while you didn’t pay attention
and expect it to be dealt with
but instead they just became the foundation that you built on
the blueprint is still wrong
like why the f_ck i act this way? i didn’t realize
i’m like a walking pattern i’ll never solve
wrecking ball, destroyin’ anybody who gets involved
it doesn’t always show in obvious ways
hides underneath the surface, slowly causing a change
and it’s hard to see the way it influenced your shape
when it’s not the brush or the canvas or the colors
it’s the way you paint
always thought i was a hopeless case
but it’s the programming i was programmed with to keep me safe
safety doesn’t always leave room to grow
when you only feel safe in this world alone
that’s abandonment and i still can’t admit
the sh_t that happened as a kid might’ve played the biggest hand in this
how i carve pride out of the fact
i had to do this on my own but it’s the only way i can
it’s the only way i’m comfortable
i dress it up and market it
the more i represent it, the more these people applaudin’ it
the more i get applauded, the more i get that conviction
but the love for what i do doesn’t fix what i was missin’
just hopin’ that somebody would notice and they would ask how i’m doin’
but they didn’t so i put it in these raps
but wanted someone to listen
wanted someone to care
didn’t get it at home so i searched in a career
and my life got caught up
thinkin’ that i’ve thought up
these thoughts that i’ve got but stop
it’s all trauma
[chorus]
it’s all trauma
it’s all trauma
the things you own makes you, you
makes them go
i don’t want to go down that road
i’ve been down that road before
it’s all trauma
the things you own makes you, you
makes them go
i don’t want to go down that road
it’s the only road i know

- ekoh

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